just spent an hour scrolling through my contacts at 2am like literally hoping someone would magically appear who could handle my weirdness but every name felt like a weight instead of a lifeline, just me, a phone, and a lot of silence. thinking about the last time i reached out to someone and it went nowhere, like i was already fading away before my own eyes.
so i was at this job interview, right, and when they asked about my greatest weakness, i totally blanked and ended up saying "i care too much about my plants" and they just stared at me like uh okay and it was soooo awkward that i could practically feel the crickets.
i stared at my empty bank account and the final bill for the vet because the dog needed surgery and i just don't know how to choose between food or fixing my car this month, like how did it come to this, i thought we were okay, just a few more weeks til the next paycheck but now it feels like i should just sell my things and run away but even that sounds exhausting.
i stared at my empty bank account and the final bill for the vet because the dog needed surgery and i just don't know how to choose between food or fixing my car this month, like how did it come to this, i thought we were okay, just a few more weeks til the next paycheck but now it feels like i should just sell my things and run away but even that sounds exhausting.
yar, matlab samjho na, three months in and my spouse is at the casino more than home and घर वाले समझते नहीं, adjust kar lo bas, like it is some kind of mathematical equation I can solve.