i sometimes wonder if i actually want my own child to be healthy or if i just need to feel like i did everything i could to fix my past mistakes, like every late night scrolling feels like a gamble that just ends up being another way to distract from feeling utterly helpless and lost.
sometimes i catch myself staring at the old rusty bike in the corner of the garage that i promised i would fix but honestly i just feel so much guilt about not being the adventurous person i thought i would be by now, like all those unfulfilled dreams and the dust just sits there mocking me every single day.
so i tried to be nice and bring in donuts for the office, but instead of asking everyone if they wanted one, i yelled "who wants to take a bite out of my glaze" — and the entire room went silent.
so i tried to be nice and bring in donuts for the office, but instead of asking everyone if they wanted one, i yelled "who wants to take a bite out of my glaze" — and the entire room went silent.
so my disability benefits got denied because i posted a photo of me smiling on social media, like seriously, is that how it works now? being happy for one second means you can just disregard everything else, like honestly, what kind of logic is that?