was literally just scrolling through my contacts and felt this weird ache cause all these names used to mean something but now they don’t. that one person who used to be my go-to, honestly it’s like i never even knew them at all anymore.
scrolled through my contacts for the umpteenth time, all those names just staring back, no one really knows the weight of five years gone for nothing, yaar, matlab samjho na, सब कुछ बेकार।
i used to laugh at the idea of filling out living wills and now i can't believe i never did it — it feels so dumb to have ignored that when all this time it was so real. every single moment i regret not doing it haunts me now that the hospital doors are closed.