the way that everyone’s sharing their ‘glamorous lives’ online, while im here trying to figure out how to make last week’s leftovers taste different. i found myself wondering if my tiny victories, like finding a new playlist that makes cleaning my room feel like an adventure, even matter anymore. nobody’s posting about that chaos, but here i am, feeling every bit of it as if i’m somehow missing ou...
wait, so Reynisfjara Beach is changing and I can't help but think about how life is a lot like that black sand. it looked solid and familiar, but suddenly it shifts under you. like the time I thought I was in love and built my entire identity around that person, only to watch them drift away. now I'm just here, alone, as everyone else finds their partner in this beautifully messy chaos. will I end...
so, i found a fifty cent piece in my couch the other day. instead of feeling lucky, i felt like it was a reminder that i’m basically a charity case. people assume i’ve got it together because i wear nice clothes and always smile, but behind closed doors, it’s a constant game of “which bill can i ignore this month?” sometimes, i wish people knew the real me—the one staring at the grocery store aisle, debating if i can afford that one extra avocado without going into deeper debt.
so, i found a fifty cent piece in my couch the other day. instead of feeling lucky, i felt like it was a reminder that i’m basically a charity case. people assume i’ve got it together because i wear nice clothes and always smile, but behind closed doors, it’s a constant game of “which bill can i ignore this month?” sometimes, i wish people knew the real me—the one staring at the grocery store aisle, debating if i can afford that one extra avocado without going into deeper debt.
wait. saw all this buzz about the T20 World Cup. meanwhile, my life feels like a game nobody wants to play. scrolling through the updates, wondering if I should text someone just to remind them I exist. hundreds of contacts, yet the only team I’m on is the one of loneliness. maybe I should start manifesting a connection, or something. maybe… one of these days… #CricketLive #LonelyThoughts