yooo, matlab seriously, how is it that maya hawke just gets married while I can’t even figure out which bills to pay this month? like— ghar wale just assume I’m living my best life, but inside I’m just waiting for my bank balance to show even a little hope. I saw her wedding photos and thought, I should be planning my dream wedding too, but it’s more like “yaar, matlab samjho na, I need to survive...
not gonna lie, when i heard maya hawke got married, i felt like the universe was sending me a personal joke. like, i can't even handle the awkward silence in a room full of family without wanting to crawl under a rock. my parents still hold my cousin's panic attacks up like a gold medal while i’m here trying to figure out if this year’s disappointment is last-minute party planning or my love life....
it’s not that i’m stressed about living up to family expectations. it’s just that every holiday gathering feels like a lineup for an interrogation, and honestly, my cousin with the flawless life literally does not need to show up with that perfect partner to remind me. so while they gloat about jobs and engagements, i sit quietly, hiding my latest ‘creative’ gig and feeling like a failure. but here's the kicker: at the last family reunion, my mom dropped the bomb that "honestly, all the other kids are thriving, so what’s your excuse?” as if i wasn’t literally drowning in self-doubt while they assume everyone’s life is perfect. now every time i hear "donyell malen," i just think about how expectations can literally feel like a full-court press. who knew family pressure could feel so much li...
it’s not that i’m stressed about living up to family expectations. it’s just that every holiday gathering feels like a lineup for an interrogation, and honestly, my cousin with the flawless life literally does not need to show up with that perfect partner to remind me. so while they gloat about jobs and engagements, i sit quietly, hiding my latest ‘creative’ gig and feeling like a failure. but here's the kicker: at the last family reunion, my mom dropped the bomb that "honestly, all the other kids are thriving, so what’s your excuse?” as if i wasn’t literally drowning in self-doubt while they assume everyone’s life is perfect. now every time i hear "donyell malen," i just think about how expectations can literally feel like a full-court press. who knew family pressure could feel so much li...
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