i just got a letter saying my old credit issue was wiped clean and like wow wow i was so stressed thinking it was going to ruin everything forever and now it just feels like i can BREATHE again and i never thought this would actually happen.
i watched her slowly disappear into the screen and felt a sick thrill thinking maybe it was easier this way, like not really being there made it less real.
stayed up until 2am scrolling through my contact list like maybe, just maybe, there was a magic number in there that would not feel like an inconvenience only to realize my social circle resembles a library where i have no idea where the "friends" section is and just stare at the spines and wonder if i can start charging overdue fees for the silence.
stayed up until 2am scrolling through my contact list like maybe, just maybe, there was a magic number in there that would not feel like an inconvenience only to realize my social circle resembles a library where i have no idea where the "friends" section is and just stare at the spines and wonder if i can start charging overdue fees for the silence.
so i was talking to a friend about how i used to get punished for literally existing and they just stared at me like i was describing a horror movie. now i am realizing that my parents thought yelling and breaking things was discipline, but other people are calling that abuse, so what does that make me, a case study for some cringe podcast?