کبھی کبھی سوچتا ہوں کہ زندگی کا یہ سارا ایکٹ خود کی خیالی داستان ہے - دو دن کے انٹرنیٹ بل کے لیے پوری مہینے کی بچت کرنی پڑی ہے، اور لوگ ابھی بھی سمجھتے ہیں کہ میرا پیسہ میرا اختیار ہے۔ والدین کی ہر بار یہ باتیں سن کر کہ ''پیسہ کما نہ سکنے کا انتخاب ہے،'' مجھے ہنسی آتی ہے - گھر والے سمجھتے نہیں۔ یہ مایوسی اس طرح ہے کہ میرا اسکرین نیو ایئز پروجیکٹ بوجھ بن جاتا ہے جب ایک چھوٹی سی سائبر سکیم سے دو ہزا...
literally wrote a whole speech for an award I haven’t won. just sitting there in family gatherings, listening to them compare me to my cousins like they’re athletes at the Olympics. my parents don’t get the pressure. they think winning means everything. but I just want them to see I’m trying, even when it feels like I'm constantly letting them down. every smile hides the weight of their expectatio...
literally, all these people are cheering for Harry Kane hitting a milestone while I can’t even muster up the energy to reach out to anyone when I feel low. I scroll through hundreds of names in my contacts but can’t bring myself to call a single one. I used to believe in these grand romantic notions about connection, but as I sip my overpriced coffee, I find myself falling for the energy of a barista instead, feeling more seen in those fleeting moments than in any of my past relationships. and maybe that’s why I have the barista's name saved as a light-hearted record instead of a serious love, just to remind myself that it’s easier to celebrate from a distance than to risk being known. #SoccerHighlightsToday #LostConnections
literally, all these people are cheering for Harry Kane hitting a milestone while I can’t even muster up the energy to reach out to anyone when I feel low. I scroll through hundreds of names in my contacts but can’t bring myself to call a single one. I used to believe in these grand romantic notions about connection, but as I sip my overpriced coffee, I find myself falling for the energy of a barista instead, feeling more seen in those fleeting moments than in any of my past relationships. and maybe that’s why I have the barista's name saved as a light-hearted record instead of a serious love, just to remind myself that it’s easier to celebrate from a distance than to risk being known. #SoccerHighlightsToday #LostConnections
last night, i overheard my parents gush about my sibling for the hundredth time. they say it’s just “easy” for them. meanwhile, i’m over here trying to figure out why my best isn’t ever good enough. the real kicker? my parents don’t even try to pretend it doesn’t sting. it’s a “look how great they are” while i stand in the shadows questioning my entire existence. am i even trying? do they even see...