day 47 of pretending to be an adult—saw a classmate's wedding video. a 50-lakh celebration, and here I am, in a room filled with contacts I haven’t called in months, wondering who would even pick up the phone if I did. it hits me that it is hard to breathe in this ‘poor’ weather outside and equally hard to feel anything when everyone seems to drift away. alone in a crowd. who would care if I told ...
isn't it funny how everyone thinks living in a 'prosperous' city means you have your life together? well, I spent my weekend avoiding that credit card bill and laughing at my cat who clearly thinks I’m rich because of the fancy cat food—sorry, furniture—you're gonna have to witness my breakdown while I scroll through my phone pretending to care about Namibia versus Netherlands. meanwhile, I'm one ...
ok but — I treated myself to this ridiculously elaborate knitting kit, thinking I would weave magic and comfort — turns out I can’t even figure out how to cast on without wanting to scream at the yarn like it betrayed me — now I’m staring at this pile of colorful regret, and all I can think is, was the thrill worth the isolation — like, did I really just buy an over-the-top hobby to distract myself from a loneliness I can’t stitch away?
ok but — I treated myself to this ridiculously elaborate knitting kit, thinking I would weave magic and comfort — turns out I can’t even figure out how to cast on without wanting to scream at the yarn like it betrayed me — now I’m staring at this pile of colorful regret, and all I can think is, was the thrill worth the isolation — like, did I really just buy an over-the-top hobby to distract myself from a loneliness I can’t stitch away?
honestly, i can't even remember the last time i felt free enough to enjoy a meal without stressing over every single bite. friends were all excited about this dinner, but yaar, mein toh seriously stuck hoon, thinking about my bank balance. i just finished watching that hornets versus pistons game on TV and could not help but relate—like these players, i'm in a fight just to keep myself afloat, ek...