it's not that i regret my decision to take the safe job; it's just that sometimes i stare at the random cloud shapes outside my window and wonder if the person i could have been is lost somewhere in the fluff. today, i found myself wondering what would have happened if i had followed that one dream of becoming a circus performer, juggling flaming torches instead of sitting here in my bland cubicle...
literally just had a moment where I realized my best friend texts me like Cristiano Ronaldo in the transfer window—only when they need something. I sent them a meme to check in and the next message was “hey, can you cover my shift this Friday?” Honestly, I spent an hour debating if I should just leave them on read or send a selfie with a distressed expression, captioned “gotta go practice my footw...
do you ever find yourself sitting in a room full of half-remembered names, scrolling through contacts you could call but never would? the irony is thick. there’s a dozen people who would “be there for you” but the truth is, they don't really *know* you. i just spent another weekend working, missing connections that never happened. so many texts that read like business emails when what i want is a laugh over shared silence, not superficial niceties. and here i am, pretending it's okay, hiding behind a screen while holding onto echoes of friendships that were never really real.
do you ever find yourself sitting in a room full of half-remembered names, scrolling through contacts you could call but never would? the irony is thick. there’s a dozen people who would “be there for you” but the truth is, they don't really *know* you. i just spent another weekend working, missing connections that never happened. so many texts that read like business emails when what i want is a laugh over shared silence, not superficial niceties. and here i am, pretending it's okay, hiding behind a screen while holding onto echoes of friendships that were never really real.
no because the last time my aunt asked about my job, I accidentally said "I'm enjoying my extended vacation" while holding a half-eaten cupcake, looking like I literally got lost in a bakery. honestly, if she finds out I got laid off, I will literally have to fake an entire life story that involves being a professional cupcake taster just to keep the family gossip at bay. #BangladeshMfsElectionRes...