nobody texts me anymore, like i scroll through my contacts and it hits me, i mean really hits me, how empty everything feels, even when i put on a smile, no one to share that thought about the way companies suck, you know, they just expect freshers to jump through hoops and it gets lonelier, and like, yaar, matlab samjho na, कितना अजीब है।
i keep looking at the spot where their toys used to be and wondering why i can’t just throw them away, like it’s some sort of shrine to everything that was lost and nobody even remembers anymore. it just feels so heavy and empty and why does it feel wrong to want it all to disappear.
today was one of those days where everything just felt off, like i caught my reflection in a random window and didn’t recognize myself at all. i mean, why does it feel so weird to be in this body, struggling with something so basic like holding a fork, like do i even know who i am anymore?
today was one of those days where everything just felt off, like i caught my reflection in a random window and didn’t recognize myself at all. i mean, why does it feel so weird to be in this body, struggling with something so basic like holding a fork, like do i even know who i am anymore?
spent the whole day wandering around with no real purpose, just avoiding the shelter until 8pm. sat on a park bench and someone tossed a dollar my way and i felt so grateful but then realized that does not solve anything, just felt like a reminder of how little i have, how little i am.