literally watching everyone around me thrive is exhausting. friends buying new things, chasing dreams, while I sit here making the same list of goals I never chase. honestly, it feels like I’m stuck in a loop of decisions I keep telling myself are “practical.” sometimes I wonder if my vision board is just a wallpaper for my fears. #lifechoices #leftbehind
sometimes i wonder how someone so manipulative can sit in a corner office, wearing a smug smile while the rest of us pick up the pieces. why does nobody else see the damage they do? i used to think it was just me feeling small, but now i realize they’ve somehow created a world where being the loudest is the same as being the best. it feels like i’m living in a real-life office version of a twisted...
so like, family gatherings feel less like catching up and more like an interrogation — like, “when are you going to settle down?” or “why can't you be more like your cousin who already has three kids?” it's exhausting. i feel like a disappointment because i’m not checking off the boxes they set. meanwhile, they don’t see the anxiety bubbling underneath or that i literally have no clue what my life is supposed to look like.
so like, family gatherings feel less like catching up and more like an interrogation — like, “when are you going to settle down?” or “why can't you be more like your cousin who already has three kids?” it's exhausting. i feel like a disappointment because i’m not checking off the boxes they set. meanwhile, they don’t see the anxiety bubbling underneath or that i literally have no clue what my life is supposed to look like.
इस समय हर परिवार में शादी की बातें चल रही हैं - मुझे तो ऐसे लगता है जैसे मैं अपनी ज़िंदगी में कहीं ठहर गई हूँ। मेरा भाई और कज़िन सभी शादी कर रहे हैं, और घर वाले मुझसे पूछते हैं "तुम कब?"। लेकिन कौन समझेगा मेरी बातें - जब मेरी पहचान सिर्फ उनकी अपेक्षाओं में उलझी है, मैं खुद को खोने लगी हूँ। इसी बीच, हडीफसी बैंक के शेयरों के गिरने की खबर पर कुछ नहीं कहती, फिर भी ये मेरे दिल को खा जाती है। क्या मैं भ...