it’s funny how you can feel like a ghost in a room full of people, yet the moment you accidentally liked that photo from forty-seven weeks ago, your heart drops like it knows a secret. like, what does it say about me that i’m scrolling through memories while missing the present? im still over here imagining you’re somehow still living in that perfect moment, and i’m just stuck here feeling hollow....
wait, so like, I’m stuck staring at my weather app while I think about how the Metropolitano pitch is a disaster, and it’s honestly a lot like my own life right now. I chose the practical route, like a sensible person, but now I’m watching this mudslide of regret roll in like a rainy day ruining everyone’s plans. It’s not that I wanted to be a professional pitch doctor, but the metaphor isn’t lost...
it’s three am and i’m wide awake, scrolling through the news about gary player feeling rejected by a place that holds so many memories. it reminds me of my old friends who used to know me deeply, and how now i barely know their faces from social media photos. my phone buzzes with messages from contacts who barely know what i’m feeling. at least gary had the joy of a connection at one point. me? i’m just staring at the screen, wondering if it’s sad that my greatest connection is an internet search history of 'how to cope with loneliness.' #GaryPlayer #loneliness
it’s three am and i’m wide awake, scrolling through the news about gary player feeling rejected by a place that holds so many memories. it reminds me of my old friends who used to know me deeply, and how now i barely know their faces from social media photos. my phone buzzes with messages from contacts who barely know what i’m feeling. at least gary had the joy of a connection at one point. me? i’m just staring at the screen, wondering if it’s sad that my greatest connection is an internet search history of 'how to cope with loneliness.' #GaryPlayer #loneliness
last night, i was scrolling and saw everyone reposting their new jerseys for the premier league. meanwhile, i can't even afford to update my wardrobe after losing her. it's like i’m watching everyone else score big while i'm just trying to not get relegated in my own life. why does seeing everyone celebrate just make my empty room feel louder? #PremierLeague #lifeishard