sitting on my couch, staring at the blank walls of this one-bedroom i can barely afford, just got a bill that makes my stomach drop. while my friends post about their vacations and promotions, i feel like i am sinking deeper and deeper, like no matter how hard i try, i’m just treading water in a pool that's draining.
woke up today to the sound of my neighbor blasting their speakers for the second day in a row like they dont know what my life looks like in this tiny apartment where i can barely afford rent. they post their success stories online while i sit here waiting for a phone call that might save my life and it feels like im invisible to everyone, just waiting for a little bit of help, just one damn email...
sat here looking at the peeling paint in my bathroom again while everyone at the table raves about their promotions and trips, just thinking about how my last "big win" was figuring out how to patch the hole in my wall. sometimes feels like my life is on pause, you know?
sat here looking at the peeling paint in my bathroom again while everyone at the table raves about their promotions and trips, just thinking about how my last "big win" was figuring out how to patch the hole in my wall. sometimes feels like my life is on pause, you know?
so i sent a twelve minute voice note to my mom that was actually meant for my friend about how i tripped over a squirrel while trying to get a delivery, and now she thinks i have a weird obsession with squirrels which is like NO, just wanted to warn her about my new professional status as squirrel tripping expert. now she keeps asking me about my “squirrel adventures” and i just want to disappear ...