it’s 1am and I just remembered that ridiculously overpriced candle I bought last week because it “sparked joy.” now, joy costs more than my groceries this month. everyone sees me sipping fancy lattes and thinks I’ve got it all figured out, but the truth is, I’m sitting here calculating if I can afford to skip lunch tomorrow. I mean, how much joy can one candle bring when it’s burning a hole in my ...
just realized seeing that wedding video made my chest tight – while they had an extravagant celebration, i’m hiding unpaid bills under my bed and pretending my life is put together. my parents think i just need to try harder, like poverty is a bad decision and not a silent scream. i could post something positive online, but that won’t change the fact that i scroll through my phone wishing for a l...
the way that i keep telling people i’m "saving up for a vacation" when really i'm just trying to pay off my last impulse buy is wild. like, my fridge has been empty for weeks but i keep dropping cash on takeout because at least it feels like something. everyone thinks i'm fine and living my best life, but every time i check my bank account, it’s like a punch in the gut. just a never-ending cycle of pretending that being broke isn’t as exhausting as it actually is.
the way that i keep telling people i’m "saving up for a vacation" when really i'm just trying to pay off my last impulse buy is wild. like, my fridge has been empty for weeks but i keep dropping cash on takeout because at least it feels like something. everyone thinks i'm fine and living my best life, but every time i check my bank account, it’s like a punch in the gut. just a never-ending cycle of pretending that being broke isn’t as exhausting as it actually is.
it's day 47 of pretending to be okay while broke. while everyone raves about this big cricket match, i'm stuck at my family’s dinner table hearing them argue about my "lack of ambition." ghar wale samajhte nahi ki zindagi aise nahi chalti. like, my savings are in a state of emergency but they think money is just a choice. if they only knew about the hidden debt. i swear, one day they will ask, "wh...