i checked my account after a month of ignoring it and somehow only had enough to get groceries but the new vinyl i wanted was just out of reach and it felt like everything bad from my past just flashed back like how i used to choose food over warmth and now it never stops feeling like i am still making that choice every time i sit down to eat something instead of investing in myself.
so i just tried that new bread recipe thinking it would bomb like all the others but it turned out way better than expected, like the crust is perfectly golden and it rose beautifully. i was convinced i was destined for disaster, but here i am with a loaf i can actually be proud of.
so today i went to the store for just a loaf of bread but somehow walked out with a plant that looks more alive than i do. it is thriving in its little pot and i just stood there feeling like a complete loser, like i have to care for this thing while my own life is a train wreck at this point.
so today i went to the store for just a loaf of bread but somehow walked out with a plant that looks more alive than i do. it is thriving in its little pot and i just stood there feeling like a complete loser, like i have to care for this thing while my own life is a train wreck at this point.
checked my bank account and saw the balance that just hits different after the paycheck, like seriously what even is the point when I could only afford one pack of ramen this week and even then i had to leave the snacks behind at the store because rent took it all and now it just feels like everything is crumbling but people keep telling me that budgeting is easy like they’ve ever had to decide be...