just got news that something serious is wrong and my first thought was wow this is gonna cost so much, then it hit me like what the heck. like are you even supposed to think about that first or am i just a mess for being practical at the worst possible time.
i just sent a fifteen-minute voice note about my deepest fears to someone who does not even know me and now i am feeling like i accidentally set a piece of my soul on fire, like what even was i thinking, how did i even get to that point, like is that how i have conversations now…
मतलब, आज सुबह मैंने तय किया कि दो कप चाय बनाऊँगा — पर जैसे ही चाय बनाते समय पानी उबलने लगा, अचानक ध्यान भटक गया और सब जल गया। यार, घर वाले समझते नहीं, कितनी बार ये होता है, मैं अकेले रहकर क्या करूँगा।
मतलब, आज सुबह मैंने तय किया कि दो कप चाय बनाऊँगा — पर जैसे ही चाय बनाते समय पानी उबलने लगा, अचानक ध्यान भटक गया और सब जल गया। यार, घर वाले समझते नहीं, कितनी बार ये होता है, मैं अकेले रहकर क्या करूँगा।
sat down to eat lunch and realized i had packed two pieces of bread but forgot the peanut butter like how do you even mess that up. now i just have dry bread and a weird sense of loss like it’s a small tragedy or something.