sometimes i wonder if moving here was a mistake because even when i smile, it feels like nobody sees me, like i am just passing through. i keep thinking maybe if i spoke better, they would notice me but then i remember they only hear the accent and that makes my heart feel heavy.
so i just finished this show and i was all emotional then i accidentally texted my grocery list to my boss instead of my sister. felt like a total fool when she replied asking if i needed 10 avocados for a recipe or something.
yaan, aaj phir se itna kuch socha par ek message bhejna bhi yaad nahi aaya. koi samjhta nahi, sab kuch akele hi jeena padta hai.
yaan, aaj phir se itna kuch socha par ek message bhejna bhi yaad nahi aaya. koi samjhta nahi, sab kuch akele hi jeena padta hai.
woke up exhausted, spent the morning gathering the courage to just put on shoes, then my neighbor asked how i was feeling, and i smiled and said fine while my body felt like it was doing that frozen fish dance on ice just to get inside my own house, so you know, typical Tuesday.