it’s not that I’m lonely, it’s just that the only text I drafted last week was “hey, how are you?” and I literally never hit send. my entire week has revolved around training the person who will take over my job while scrolling through my contacts and realizing there is nobody to call. now my last conversation was with a work chat bot, and that feels like a sign I should really reconnect with that...
wait. i just pulled up my bank account to pay for a bus pass. I swear my heart dropped lower than my checking balance. after looking at that empty pit where my money used to be, I just stood there staring at the screen, wondering why rent is due on a Tuesday. honestly, I still need to buy groceries for the week and I know I cannot afford the organic stuff I pretend to like. the deli near my place ...
the way that everyone keeps saying how "self-care" is key but here i am at my desk literally stuffing down the last bite of a stale bagel after just losing my pregnancy. i had to go back to work the next day because what was i gonna do, ask for time off to heal while my rent is due and my paycheck barely covers my bad coffee addiction? i watch my coworkers laugh in their shiny new sneakers, not knowing the reality of the freezer full of cheap microwave meals waiting for me at home. i guess those self-help quotes don’t apply to my version of “keeping it together.”
the way that everyone keeps saying how "self-care" is key but here i am at my desk literally stuffing down the last bite of a stale bagel after just losing my pregnancy. i had to go back to work the next day because what was i gonna do, ask for time off to heal while my rent is due and my paycheck barely covers my bad coffee addiction? i watch my coworkers laugh in their shiny new sneakers, not knowing the reality of the freezer full of cheap microwave meals waiting for me at home. i guess those self-help quotes don’t apply to my version of “keeping it together.”
wait. you ever get so caught up in work you send a detailed email meant for your manager to the entire company instead? my 'urgent: restructuring proposal' just ended up with every intern in the company laughing about how the “execs clearly have no idea what they are doing.” two weeks later, i get summoned to HR. at that moment, it hit me—sometimes doing the right thing just ends up making you a p...