یا ر، تو بس سمجھ لے نا. جب ہر کوئی مہنگی موٹروں اور نئی گھروں کی کہانیاں سناتا ہے، میں اپنے چھوٹے سے کمرے میں ایک پیچھے والے کرائے کے گھر میں بیٹھا ہوں۔ بس ایک زرا سی آسودگی کا انتظار کر رہا ہوں۔ اب تو ایسی گندی باتوں کا بھی دل کرتا ہے کہ 'خدا کے واسطے مجھے کچھ اور میسر کر دے'۔ کیسے لوگ اس سوسائٹی میں اتنا آگے نکل گئے؟ لگتا ہے میں ہمیشہ وہی بیٹا ہوں جس کا والدین نے مثالی مثالیں دینا شروع کر دیا۔ ک...
the way that they said they needed space—then I saw them posting with someone else, looking all cozy. like, you couldn't even wait a week? and here I am, sending myself voice memos about our shared love for peculiar pickles and 3 a.m. conversations. I should be hurt but instead, I’m just cracking up at the sheer AUDACITY of it all. it’s wild how quickly people forget the past when there's a fresh ...
last night, I sat in my empty living room and realized how quiet it gets after the lights go out. like, I used to think people were just being dramatic when they said adulthood is lonely, but now I get it. everyone is always saying they’re busy, but I don’t think anyone sees the loneliness creeping in when no one is asking what your plans are. it's so weird, I mean, my neighbor keeps waving like we're friends, but I don't even know their name.
last night, I sat in my empty living room and realized how quiet it gets after the lights go out. like, I used to think people were just being dramatic when they said adulthood is lonely, but now I get it. everyone is always saying they’re busy, but I don’t think anyone sees the loneliness creeping in when no one is asking what your plans are. it's so weird, I mean, my neighbor keeps waving like we're friends, but I don't even know their name.
it’s 2am and i just found my old paycheck stubs while cleaning out my drawer. seeing what i made back then compared to what people think i make now is wild. nobody sees me counting coins for bus fare while they praise my “great job.” and yet, here i am still choosing between takeout or turning on the oven, even though i had to borrow a friend’s credit card just to get some groceries last week. but...