so my mom introduced me to her nurse as a "very nice stranger" today and like yeah i know this must be dementia but it still hit me harder than my ex's texts asking to catch up, so now i'm just sitting in the car wondering if maybe it would be nice to be a stranger too and not feel this lonely pain of familiarity fading away
sometimes i think about how we shared everything, even silence, and now it feels like there is this gaping void where half my thoughts used to be. people say to cherish the memories but they don’t get that those memories are just a reminder of how literally empty it all feels now.
ugh why did i say yes to dinner with that one friend who just drones on about nothing for HOURS, like now my whole day feels ruined because i am just dreading dreading dreading sitting through small talk and fake laughter
ugh why did i say yes to dinner with that one friend who just drones on about nothing for HOURS, like now my whole day feels ruined because i am just dreading dreading dreading sitting through small talk and fake laughter
so my toilet just decided to back up, right as i was checking my account and i saw the balance was literally zero. now i have to choose between calling a plumber or paying my internet bill and i honestly can't believe how trapped i feel, like, why is being an adult this hard.