so i spent my entire day staring at my cracked phone screen while this huge pile of clothes in the corner was calling me out for needing to be washed but i could literally only think about how my roommate just moved into a brand new place and got a raise, and i'm here eating instant ramen while wondering if i can sell my old video games just to buy a coffee.
یار، کبھی کبھی ایسا لگتا ہے جیسے سبھی لوگ کامیاب ہو رہے ہیں اور میں بس اپنے ایک کمرے کے اپارٹمنٹ میں پھنس گیا ہوں۔ میرے دوست نئے گھر لے رہے ہیں اور میرا تنخواہ کا چکّر کبھی ختم نہیں ہوتا، بس اتنا ہی ہے کہ مزید اچھا بننے کی کوئی امید نہیں۔
yaar, matlab samjho na, jab phone khol ke contacts dekh raha tha, toh kuch nahi mila, sab yaad aa gaya, kaise kuch dost bikhra gaye, ab kisse baat karoon, ghar wale nahi samajhte, bas khud se baatein karti hoon, kitna akela ho gaya hoon.
yaar, matlab samjho na, jab phone khol ke contacts dekh raha tha, toh kuch nahi mila, sab yaad aa gaya, kaise kuch dost bikhra gaye, ab kisse baat karoon, ghar wale nahi samajhte, bas khud se baatein karti hoon, kitna akela ho gaya hoon.
spent an hour looking for the last roll of tape because honestly it seems like every time i need it, it disappears, like is it being swallowed by the universe or something. now i am just staring at this half-wrapped present and wondering if i should just leave it as is because who even cares at this point.