sach mein, main zindagi ke kis mod par hoon, ye samajh nahi aata. ab main 30 ka ho gaya hoon, 5 saal UPSC ki taiyari karne ke baad sirf rejection letter mila hai. mere dost bade bade job positions mein hain, unki salary mere chhote se flat ki kiraya se zyada hai. aur mere ghar wale? unhone kab ka give up kar diya hai. roz sochta hoon, 5 baar fail hone ke baad kya akele saans lena bhi zaroori hai? ...
wait, so remember that moment when you think your favorite local coffee shop is going to save your soul? well, last week i spent my last twenty dollars there on an iced almond milk latte. got the notification from my bank seconds later that the electricity bill was due. was it worth the bliss of caffeine or the thrill of doing the dishes in the dark for a week? trying to remember the last time i b...
have you ever checked your savings account at 2am and felt your heart drop into your stomach? i did—saw 42 dollars. that’s not even enough for a decent takeout meal. last month, my electricity bill doubled, and they expect me to keep surviving on instant ramen while watching my paycheck disappear like a magic trick. here i am scrolling through TikTok, lost in other people's lives, all while feeling my own slipping through my fingers like grains of sand.
have you ever checked your savings account at 2am and felt your heart drop into your stomach? i did—saw 42 dollars. that’s not even enough for a decent takeout meal. last month, my electricity bill doubled, and they expect me to keep surviving on instant ramen while watching my paycheck disappear like a magic trick. here i am scrolling through TikTok, lost in other people's lives, all while feeling my own slipping through my fingers like grains of sand.
it's not that i don't struggle with my disability, it's just that someone decided a cheerful photo from a recent brunch meant i was "doing fine." now i’m sitting on my worn-out couch in my tiny apartment, staring at a pile of bills, wondering if smiling means i need to get a job that doesn’t exist for me. my friends are posting promotions and new adventures while i fight to prove my reality, and i...