have you ever just watched someone take the fall and felt that sick mixture of relief and guilt? it was a boring afternoon, my colleague spilled coffee on a crucial report. instead of confessing that i knocked it over during my epic debate with a stapler, i just let them handle it. it wasn’t even my favorite stapler, but man, the tension of the moment was palpable.
it’s 3am and i’m sitting here imagining a whole argument with my neighbor about their loud music. it started with a simple eye roll, but now i'm convinced they must think they're the next great symphony and i'm over here just trying to sleep. but as i rehearse it, i get angrier, fantasizing about walking over and flipping their circuit breaker just for peace. who knew not having my silence respect...
just realized that my excuse for missing game night was literally just me pretending to have plans, when in reality, i was hiding in my room binge-watching bad reality TV while clutching a bag of stale chips. honestly, it's a little embarrassing. like, who knew that saying “oh, I have plans” felt easier than admitting i can’t afford to leave the house? the truth is, i don't even remember the last time i actually felt social.
just realized that my excuse for missing game night was literally just me pretending to have plans, when in reality, i was hiding in my room binge-watching bad reality TV while clutching a bag of stale chips. honestly, it's a little embarrassing. like, who knew that saying “oh, I have plans” felt easier than admitting i can’t afford to leave the house? the truth is, i don't even remember the last time i actually felt social.
it's day thirty of pretending to be fine at family gatherings while everyone else talks about promotions and vacations. meanwhile, i'm juggling hidden student loans and a life that feels like i’m always a cricket match behind. honestly, sometimes i daydream about just shouting out how broke i am instead of nodding along, but then they’ll just think it’s a joke, right? yaar, matlab samjho na, کوئی ...