just spent half an hour staring at my contacts and couldn’t bring myself to call anyone, felt stupid thinking about how it used to be so easy to reach out but now i just sit with this heavy loneliness like it’s another shift i can’t escape from, guess some things just fade away.
यार, मतलब समझो ना, एक बार मैंने सबके सामने ये कह दिया कि "बास्केटबॉल बड़ा गोल है" — और सब हंसने लगे, मैं बस ये बताना चाहता था कि मैंने गेंद की तरफ देखा नहीं था, पूरी बात उल्टी हो गई। घर वाले समझते नहीं, बस उस दिन के बाद से सब मुझे वो "गोल" बोलके चिढ़ाते रहे।
so my whole life just got a plot twist worthy of a bad soap opera, turns out my parents funded every vacation and private school i went to with embezzled money, like i am living a lie funded by the world’s worst poker night. now i am stuck at a family gathering, watching my mom laugh about “the good old days” while i just want to be swallowed by the earth because my life feels like an episode of a crime show where the suspect is me.
so my whole life just got a plot twist worthy of a bad soap opera, turns out my parents funded every vacation and private school i went to with embezzled money, like i am living a lie funded by the world’s worst poker night. now i am stuck at a family gathering, watching my mom laugh about “the good old days” while i just want to be swallowed by the earth because my life feels like an episode of a crime show where the suspect is me.
just finished a show and sat there like someone had taken my entire sense of purpose, realized my plants were judging me, and then just stared at the wall, wondering if this is what a midlife crisis feels like at thirty but honestly it might just be that i need to water them more.