yaar, matlab samjho na, i was at the café yesterday and saw my friend who used to struggle like me now getting promoted while i am still in this tiny apartment with my 40k salary, just sitting there, missing deadlines, feeling like a total loser and कोई समझتا نہیں how hard it is to see them shine while i feel like i am still stuck in first gear, thinking maybe if i just try harder, but then i reme...
i cannot believe the car started this morning, like it usually refuses to, and it didn’t make that awful noise, just smooth, no dread at all, i was sure today would be a disaster but it turned out perfect, so weird. not gonna think about yesterday’s worries, just gonna breathe and drive and enjoy this feeling.
yaar, matlab samjho na, jab main khud ko mirror me dekh rahi thi aur maine apne hi reflection se poocha "tu kya kar rahi hai," toh ghar wale aise dek rahe the jaise mai paagal ho gayi hoon, par mujhe samajh hi nahi aaya ki kyu bola toh kuch nahi bola.
yaar, matlab samjho na, jab main khud ko mirror me dekh rahi thi aur maine apne hi reflection se poocha "tu kya kar rahi hai," toh ghar wale aise dek rahe the jaise mai paagal ho gayi hoon, par mujhe samajh hi nahi aaya ki kyu bola toh kuch nahi bola.
sometimes i think about how many hours i spent organizing my stamp collection like it mattered to anyone. but it just became this heavy burden and i never told anyone that i stopped caring about it completely.