im sitting in this meeting, and there it is, my brilliant idea about integrating blockchain technology into our project. my boss praises my coworker instead, like they just birthed a tech miracle. everyone claps, and I’m there wondering if I should start carrying a clipboard around to remind them of my genius. truth is, I’ve spent years coming up with innovative thoughts, and today? I think I’ll j...
you ever think about how family boasts about your life achievements while you’re just sitting there pretending like your bank account isn't crying? yaar, mein toh rent pe hi phasa hoon, and meanwhile, they're out there sharing my degree and life updates like i’m not just figuring out how to keep my plants alive. just found out it’s going to rain for ten more days, and that’s about as long as my mo...
it’s three a.m. and i find myself sitting on the bathroom floor, staring at the toothpaste-streaked mirror. i’ve practiced smiling in the reflection so much that sometimes i wonder if the real me has forgotten what genuine happiness feels like. it hits me that maybe, just maybe, i’m not actually happy—just an expert in pretending—because even my own laughter sounds rehearsed at this point.
it’s three a.m. and i find myself sitting on the bathroom floor, staring at the toothpaste-streaked mirror. i’ve practiced smiling in the reflection so much that sometimes i wonder if the real me has forgotten what genuine happiness feels like. it hits me that maybe, just maybe, i’m not actually happy—just an expert in pretending—because even my own laughter sounds rehearsed at this point.
ever realize you’ve been apologizing for existing like it’s an Olympic sport? it’s exhausting. i catch myself saying sorry for bumping into someone, even when i’m just trying to walk to the other side of the room. and now, after years of shrinking myself down to fit everyone else's idea of normal, i’m just tired. like, can’t i just take up space without feeling guilty? when did being myself turn i...