yaar, matlab samjho na, seeing my friends getting promotions and buying their first homes while I sit in this cramped apartment with a salary that barely covers my bills is like torture, और मेरे सास-ससुर की नज़रों में जो दया है, वो हर रोज़ ताज़ा होती है। कोई समझता नहीं, हर रोज़ इसी लड़ाई में निकलती हूँ कि क्या मैं कभी अपने सपनों को जी पाऊंगी।
i was literally staring at a loaf of bread in my kitchen today for like 10 minutes because it reminded me of that time i spent hours baking with a friend who disappeared, and now i just scroll through my contacts wondering why it feels like nobody really knows me anymore.
yaar, matlab samjho na, yesterday I thought I was done for after that call with the doctor but honestly, it turned out all fine, just some minor stuff. मुझे ऐसा लग रहा था सब कुछ खत्म हो गया था लेकिन अब ये सोच कर हंसी आ रही है कि कोई कैसे इतनी टेंशन ले सकता है, बुरा नहीं है यार!
yaar, matlab samjho na, yesterday I thought I was done for after that call with the doctor but honestly, it turned out all fine, just some minor stuff. मुझे ऐसा लग रहा था सब कुछ खत्म हो गया था लेकिन अब ये सोच कर हंसी आ रही है कि कोई कैसे इतनी टेंशन ले सकता है, बुरा नहीं है यार!
so my plants have started to wilt and it's like they can feel my emotional state. like, congratulations to them for having one more thing in common with my mental health — guess we are all just dying slowly in this house.