got a sympathy card addressed to my dead name, along with funeral flowers, and i just think it’s funny that they really went for the full dramatic effect. like congrats, you officially mourned a person who is not even gone anymore, but i guess that makes me the ghost haunting my own life or something...
the fireworks are insane tonight, sounds like mortars but all i can think about is how i ran from the only thing that really mattered to me. she sleeps so peacefully, unaware of the chaos in my head and the regret of losing the one chance to make things right.
जब अकेले होते हैं, तो वाकई में ऐसा लगता है कि कोई नहीं समझता - ऐसा कभी-कभी सोचते-सोचते पुराने दोस्तों की तस्वीरें देखता हूँ और लगता है कि सब कुछ बदल गया है, ये एहसास बहुत चुभता है।
जब अकेले होते हैं, तो वाकई में ऐसा लगता है कि कोई नहीं समझता - ऐसा कभी-कभी सोचते-सोचते पुराने दोस्तों की तस्वीरें देखता हूँ और लगता है कि सब कुछ बदल गया है, ये एहसास बहुत चुभता है।
just got the call about my disability benefits and i was sure they would deny me because i posted that one smiling photo but instead they approved it - like i cannot believe that actually worked out, i thought it was going to destroy me, such a weight lifted off my chest, feeling grateful for this tiny win today