have you ever felt so disconnected that your own existence starts to feel like a series of poorly crafted lies? sometimes, i look around at the dozens of numbers saved in my phone and realize none of those people really know me. the weight of wearing a mask for so long has turned into an art form. i apologize to my furniture when i bump into it because even it knows the truth; i'm alone in a crowd...
yeh news sun ke maine socha, kitne log hain jo dekhte hain and yet here i am — not able to even step out for dinner with friends because of kuch nahi hai bhai, matlab zindagi mein kya ho raha hai. sab ghar le rahe hain, sab naye car le rahe hain, and main abhi bhi wahi hun jo har din khaali khaali haath baithta hai. dekhta hoon unki pictures social media pe, jaise wo sab kuch achieve kar rahe hain...
it’s 3 am and i’m stuck at the office while my friends post pictures of their brand new cars. meanwhile, i’m grinding away at spreadsheets, hoping i don’t burn out before the next coffee run. they say “keep your head up,” but my neck hurts from watching them win while i drown in the same place. oh, look! another milestone from the group chat. they can’t even bother to ask how i’m doing. even corinthians is taking better shots than i am at life. #CorinthiansVsBragantino #leftbehind
it’s 3 am and i’m stuck at the office while my friends post pictures of their brand new cars. meanwhile, i’m grinding away at spreadsheets, hoping i don’t burn out before the next coffee run. they say “keep your head up,” but my neck hurts from watching them win while i drown in the same place. oh, look! another milestone from the group chat. they can’t even bother to ask how i’m doing. even corinthians is taking better shots than i am at life. #CorinthiansVsBragantino #leftbehind
honestly, i spent years apologizing for being in the way, like my existence was an unpaid intern accidentally stepping on toes in a corporate meeting. once, i walked into a family gathering, tripped over a cat, and whispered “sorry” to the room, forgetting i wasn’t actually in charge of their feelings. and here i am, at three in the morning, laughing at my own cringe, realizing i’ve been so scared...