sat here staring at a screen for hours trying to make sense of a project but my brain just keeps going in circles. it is exhausting, exhausting to feel like every email, every call is just a trap to force me back into an office with fluorescent lights and people everywhere when i just want to breathe, breathe without this pressure.
was just looking at my empty kitchen table and remembering the last dinner party i tried to host. everyone canceled last minute, and now it’s like, how can i even reach out to those people without feeling like a total weirdo for even wanting to invite someone over ever again.
so the other day i was at this really boring seminar and thought it’d be funny to message my friend a meme about the presenter being a robot, but instead i accidentally sent it to the presenter and i just froze there like a deer in headlights while everyone turned to look at me and i kept replaying it in my mind for days. now every time i see a robot meme i have this deep existential dread about whether they will come for me someday, you know?
so the other day i was at this really boring seminar and thought it’d be funny to message my friend a meme about the presenter being a robot, but instead i accidentally sent it to the presenter and i just froze there like a deer in headlights while everyone turned to look at me and i kept replaying it in my mind for days. now every time i see a robot meme i have this deep existential dread about whether they will come for me someday, you know?
so i accidentally texted my boss instead of my friend about how i spilled coffee all over my favorite shirt and how it looked like i had an unfortunate incident with a chocolate donut and now i have to explain why i’m really “looking forward to our meeting” while trying not to die inside. i mean, what am i even doing with my life right now, like really?