yaar, matlab, it's literally exhausting hearing my parents compare me to my cousin who's struggling with panic attacks that nobody even knows about. while I am out here just trying to get my life together, they act like I’m supposed to be as perfect as him, like I should be more successful without the panic, hai na? sometimes, I wonder if they even see my battles, or if I should just ghost everyon...
yaar, samjho na please, jab sab log excitement se "ind vs pak" ke match ki baatein kar rahe hain, tab main sirf yeh soch raha hoon ki ek taraf cricket hai aur dusri taraf meri bank balance—जिसे कोई नहीं समझता. घर वाले समझते नहीं, sab kuch theek hai, main aisa pretender hoon. par andar se itni tension hai ki lagta hai kuch bhi sahi nahi. wahi people jo mujhe choti moti kaam ki wajah se pehchaante h...
yeh match ki wajah se pura mood kharab hai. literally sab log khushi khushi social media par life ka highlight reel dikhate hain, jabki mein bas subah se soch rahi hoon ki aaj khaane ke liye kya milega. ghar walon ko yeh pata hi nahi hai ki meri badi shopping karti hui dost ka dusra saal ka paycheck abhi tak mere account ke pichhe ja raha hai. bas isi tarah sochkar unki photos dekh rahi hoon, yaar koi samajhta nahi hai, bas badi badi baatein. #IndVsPak #RealityCheck
yeh match ki wajah se pura mood kharab hai. literally sab log khushi khushi social media par life ka highlight reel dikhate hain, jabki mein bas subah se soch rahi hoon ki aaj khaane ke liye kya milega. ghar walon ko yeh pata hi nahi hai ki meri badi shopping karti hui dost ka dusra saal ka paycheck abhi tak mere account ke pichhe ja raha hai. bas isi tarah sochkar unki photos dekh rahi hoon, yaar koi samajhta nahi hai, bas badi badi baatein. #IndVsPak #RealityCheck
i was lost in thought when my friend said "i love you." my heart raced, panic settled in. instead of feeling what i should have felt, i blurted out "thank you" like some kind of emotional trap door had just opened. they laughed, but it felt like betrayal. how could i trust my feelings again when they barely even showed up...sometimes i think about how love is supposed to feel, yet here i am wonder...