मुझे कुछ समझ में नहीं आता। मैं अपने दोस्तों के लिए डिनर नहीं जा पाया क्योंकि 500 रुपये मेरे लिए बहुत मायने रखते हैं। परिवार में हर कोई मुझसे उम्मीद करता है, सिब्लिंग्स, चचेरे भाई-बहन सब एक से एक आगे हैं। घर वाले समझते नहीं, उन्हें मेरे संघर्ष का कोई अहसास नहीं। परिवार की दावतें बस एक इंटेरोगेशन की तरह होती हैं, जब मैं अपने सपनों से दूर और उनके अद्भुत काबिलियत से खुद को कमतर महसूस करता हूँ। जब देखत...
woke up today thinking about how much I really spend on things that barely keep me afloat, but here I am still scrolling through designer bags I can’t afford, hoping nobody sees my bank account and asks about my plans for the future... it’s funny how I look like I’m thriving, while inside I’m trying to figure out which bill to pay late this month and suddenly Ramadan is around the corner and I jus...
literally nobody talks about how exhausting it is to pretend to enjoy those free sample snacks at the grocery store, just to distract yourself from hunger. actually, I go there to stock up on “free lunch,” knowing I still have a mountain of hidden debt that looms like a cloud over every grocery run. while people assume I’m just enjoying the artisanal cheese, I’m counting calories and coins at the same time. it’s a weird, wild dance of smiling and starving, and I’m honestly not sure which feels more fake.
literally nobody talks about how exhausting it is to pretend to enjoy those free sample snacks at the grocery store, just to distract yourself from hunger. actually, I go there to stock up on “free lunch,” knowing I still have a mountain of hidden debt that looms like a cloud over every grocery run. while people assume I’m just enjoying the artisanal cheese, I’m counting calories and coins at the same time. it’s a weird, wild dance of smiling and starving, and I’m honestly not sure which feels more fake.
literally found out my family was in the witness protection program. i guess that explains why they expect me to be perfect while hiding in plain sight, huh? how do i break it to them that I’m more into manifesting love than keeping a low profile? honestly, do they even understand the pressure? # #confessions