not gonna lie, every time I scroll through my feed and see my old high school friend’s photos of her new apartment with the vintage wallpaper I always wanted, I feel this weird knot in my stomach. she found a thrift store gem while I’m over here still debating if I can splurge on another box of pasta this week. it’s like, do I manifest an upgrade to my life or do I just keep eating the same boring...
not gonna lie, when everyone is talking about betting apps like Bet365, I pretend I have a solid game plan. I rehearse these phone calls in my head, like I’m about to drop knowledge on my friends. then they casually ask what I’m betting on. i sit there, swallowing my anxiety while everyone imagines me rolling in cash, when in reality, I’m just dodging calls from my creditors. the reality? I have...
i caught myself lying again during dinner with the family. they were sharing accomplishments, and my brain just started spinning tales about what i’m up to, which was nothing close to reality. i could feel my dad’s eyes, heavy with expectations, while my cousin casually mentioned getting into an amazing grad program, and there i was, scrambling to downplay the suffocating feeling of…being stuck. they don’t know what it feels like to feel like the black sheep in a herd of overachievers, the pressure turning dinner into an interrogation. maybe one day i'll just... disappear for a while, figure things out without this constant fear of disappointment... #AphelionPhenomenon #PressureToPerform
i caught myself lying again during dinner with the family. they were sharing accomplishments, and my brain just started spinning tales about what i’m up to, which was nothing close to reality. i could feel my dad’s eyes, heavy with expectations, while my cousin casually mentioned getting into an amazing grad program, and there i was, scrambling to downplay the suffocating feeling of…being stuck. they don’t know what it feels like to feel like the black sheep in a herd of overachievers, the pressure turning dinner into an interrogation. maybe one day i'll just... disappear for a while, figure things out without this constant fear of disappointment... #AphelionPhenomenon #PressureToPerform
समझो, मेरी ज़िंदगी भी ऐसी है जैसे उस खेल में हर बॉल पर रन बनाना है, लेकिन मैं तो बाउंड्री से बाहर खड़ा सोचता हूँ कि अगर गिर जाऊं तो कोई ध्यान नहीं देगा। यार, क्रिकेट में औरतें अब सिर पर हैं, और मैं यहाँ मास्टर डिग्री के लिए लड़ाई कर रही हूँ, जबकि मेरी नौकरी तो बस बिल भरने के लिए है... जीरो की पूरी जिंदगी चल रही है, क्यूंकि जो पैसे हैं, वो तो अभी से ही फ़िज़ूलखर्ची के लिए सोने से मना कर गए हैं। मेर...