so i spent months putting together this fancy nursery that still feels like a cruel joke, and every time i get in the car the car seat's still back there, like a ghost of plans that never got to be—realizing the only thing my baby needs now is a miracle i can't bring myself to face.
yaar, matlab samjho na, while my friends are out traveling the world, enjoying fancy dinners, मैं अपनी तनख्वाह का आधा हिस्सा उसके कर्ज़ चुकाने में लगा देती हूँ, घर वाले समझते नहीं, adjustment ka kya, जब मैं खुद को नहीं संभाल पा रही।
so i was sitting in my tiny one-bedroom, sipping the same old instant coffee, when my neighbor knocked on the wall to celebrate his promotion, and all i could think about was how i lost my job yesterday, not even two months from finally paying off my student loans, now watching everyone else thrive while i feel like im drowning in this same dingy place, just hoping the eviction notice doesn’t show up in my mailbox next.
so i was sitting in my tiny one-bedroom, sipping the same old instant coffee, when my neighbor knocked on the wall to celebrate his promotion, and all i could think about was how i lost my job yesterday, not even two months from finally paying off my student loans, now watching everyone else thrive while i feel like im drowning in this same dingy place, just hoping the eviction notice doesn’t show up in my mailbox next.
sitting here for three weeks now, stuck in my apartment with no way to get out because the elevator is still broken and the maintenance guys just keep saying they will fix it "soon" like time doesn't exist when you're at the mercy of a stairwell.