spent the whole day organizing my spice rack because that felt more achievable than tackling my pile of bills or my failed attempts at finding a job that pays more than my current minimum wage. sometimes it feels like my neighbors are throwing backyard barbecues and heading to nice vacations while im here with my collection of expired sauces wondering where it all went wrong.
some nights i just stare at the ceiling in my tiny studio, thinking about the gym where my friends go to train for marathons while i sit here wondering if a protein bar is dinner, it feels like everyone is running towards something and i am just here catching buses with strangers who smell like too much cologne and cigarettes, and like what even is a normal meal at this point anyway, do i remember...
so the other day i finally tackled the giant pile of old mail i had been avoiding and i thought for sure i was going to find something horrifying like a bill or a jury summons but instead it was just coupons for places that no longer exist, like wow, i cannot believe i feel this light now, like a weight has lifted off my chest, no drama, just ridiculous relief. it is the tiniest thing but man, that was a GOOD moment.
so the other day i finally tackled the giant pile of old mail i had been avoiding and i thought for sure i was going to find something horrifying like a bill or a jury summons but instead it was just coupons for places that no longer exist, like wow, i cannot believe i feel this light now, like a weight has lifted off my chest, no drama, just ridiculous relief. it is the tiniest thing but man, that was a GOOD moment.
हर रोज़ सुबह मैं अपने छोटे से कमरे में उठता हूँ, laptop खोलता हूँ और अपने दोस्तों की सफलता के बारे में सुनता हूँ, जब मैं बस एक mediocre job कर रहा हूँ, कोई समझता नहीं, और मैं सोचता हूँ, क्या मेरी life ऐसे ही बिता जाएगी, वहीं पर stuck, मैं बस एक जोड़ी पहनकर काम पर निकलता हूँ, बस वही.