just realized my phone autocorrects “emergency” to “payday” after last month’s panic attacks. today I triple texted my ex to borrow fifty dollars, convinced they were looking at my last paycheck and laughing. every time a holiday rolls around, like this February 17, I’m forced to smile and act like I’m living life lavishly. while in reality, I’m contemplating faking my death just to escape the end...
i just sat through another family gathering where the highlight was my cousin bragging about how she got into a law school that nobody in our family had ever heard of. my parents watched her with that gleam in their eyes, comparing me to her achievements like i'm just some project they failed at. meanwhile, i spent the whole evening faking interest in their small talk while secretly scrolling thro...
yaar, just came back from the family reunion and everyone was talking about their promotions, hai na? matlab, here I am, stuck at the same job since twenty nineteen, living paycheck to paycheck. my aunt looked at me and said, “poverty is just a mindset,” while I was hiding my mounting debt behind a forced smile. like, does anyone understand how it feels to pretend everything's okay when it's really not? I just kept nodding, but inside, I felt like I was one missed bill away from a full meltdown. #WorldCup #RelatablePain
yaar, just came back from the family reunion and everyone was talking about their promotions, hai na? matlab, here I am, stuck at the same job since twenty nineteen, living paycheck to paycheck. my aunt looked at me and said, “poverty is just a mindset,” while I was hiding my mounting debt behind a forced smile. like, does anyone understand how it feels to pretend everything's okay when it's really not? I just kept nodding, but inside, I felt like I was one missed bill away from a full meltdown. #WorldCup #RelatablePain
honestly, seeing that news about someone stuck in ice detention hits differently when you're standing in your empty kitchen at midnight, contemplating if making another bowl of cereal counts as cooking. I’ve been in my own kind of detention, locked in a job that suffocates my soul. I scroll through my social media, everyone else moving forward while I’m just... frozen. if someone could send me hel...