sat through another day of mindless chatter at the grocery store, people all around me like a swarm and yet it just hits how disconnected i feel. like i almost reached out to grab something off the shelf and remembered there is literally no reason for anyone to touch me ever and it stings just a bit.
forgot to eat all day and didn't even realize until my head felt like it was going to explode. how did i let it get this far, like who am i becoming, just sitting here scrolling while my stomach grumbles.
yaar, matlab samjho na, 10 saal tak ghar banane ke liye paisa bachat kiya, aur ab woh government ne tod diya highway ke liye, mujhe sirf ek-panchva bhaag mila uska. ab main ek purani apartment mein hoon, jahan se sirf mera dost nahin aata, aur dekhta hoon log kaise aage badh rahe hain.
yaar, matlab samjho na, 10 saal tak ghar banane ke liye paisa bachat kiya, aur ab woh government ne tod diya highway ke liye, mujhe sirf ek-panchva bhaag mila uska. ab main ek purani apartment mein hoon, jahan se sirf mera dost nahin aata, aur dekhta hoon log kaise aage badh rahe hain.
i sometimes think about how i used to write letters to myself and bury them in the backyard. i wish i could go back and tell that person to stop trying to please everyone and just live for themselves, but all i have is this nagging regret.