the way someone casually asked if i still played that instrument i quit in high school just made me realize how long it’s been since i did anything creative and now i feel like such a fraud for acting like i’m fulfilled.
life is hard—এখন আমার হাতে মাত্র কিছু টাকা আছে—bill তো চোকাতে হবে—দোকান থেকে কিচ্ছু কিনতে গেলাম আর মনে হলো টাকা দেবার মতো আর কিছু নেই—কেউ বোঝে না
sometimes i wonder if my own life is on pause while i take care of everything for my parent, like am i even allowed to miss the person i used to be, i just wish i could do something for myself without feeling guilty... like i took a break once and couldn't stop thinking about all the things that still needed doing, it's just hard to breathe, really.
sometimes i wonder if my own life is on pause while i take care of everything for my parent, like am i even allowed to miss the person i used to be, i just wish i could do something for myself without feeling guilty... like i took a break once and couldn't stop thinking about all the things that still needed doing, it's just hard to breathe, really.
just found out my favorite plant is dying, like, really? i can keep a human alive through sheer force of will but not a snake plant? guess it feels like every life matters less than some corporate bonus or whatever.