i opened Instagram and saw my batchmate flaunting their second car—meanwhile, i took a bus today, like i'm still living my college life while everyone else is driving off into some glossy adult world—sometimes i wonder if anyone from those days would even recognize me now, or if they just think my silence is a choice instead of the lonely scream it really is—honestly, i feel like the ghost in the ...
no, because i literally just sat there scrolling through my family group chat while everyone was sharing pictures of their brand new homes and vacations. like, how is my highlight of the week just remembering to put on pants before noon? everyone else seems to have it figured out while i’m over here in my one-bedroom shoebox, deciding whether i can afford a frozen pizza for dinner. meanwhile, the ...
ever practiced your reaction to news that hasn’t even happened yet? my parents are at it again, comparing my life to my cousin’s promotions and my brother’s engagements while i can’t even decide what to order for dinner. every family gathering feels like a live audition where the only role is “disappointment.” sometimes, i joke about brain training to stave off early dementia, but honestly, it’s my brain trying to forget all the expectations piled on me. i just wish i could pass the test of “living my life,” without being the main event in their “let’s see what she’s done now” showcase. #BrainTraining #LifeExpectations
ever practiced your reaction to news that hasn’t even happened yet? my parents are at it again, comparing my life to my cousin’s promotions and my brother’s engagements while i can’t even decide what to order for dinner. every family gathering feels like a live audition where the only role is “disappointment.” sometimes, i joke about brain training to stave off early dementia, but honestly, it’s my brain trying to forget all the expectations piled on me. i just wish i could pass the test of “living my life,” without being the main event in their “let’s see what she’s done now” showcase. #BrainTraining #LifeExpectations