i never thought watching her on a screen would feel like the end. sometimes i wonder if that stroke was a reminder that our time is finite, but i still choose to stay away.
got a letter from the hospital saying i owe them money for trying to save my partner, guess they figured saving lives is a luxury now, right, like they should’ve sent me a menu first, or maybe an installment plan for this delightful experience of loss.
sitting in a cafe surrounded by people but literally feeling like i am in a bubble, had this thought about how it is so weird i used to have this group chat but now i just scroll past it like it was never there, honestly makes me wonder if anyone even remembers the jokes we shared or if it is all just gone into the void.
sitting in a cafe surrounded by people but literally feeling like i am in a bubble, had this thought about how it is so weird i used to have this group chat but now i just scroll past it like it was never there, honestly makes me wonder if anyone even remembers the jokes we shared or if it is all just gone into the void.
sometimes i think about how my garden is the only thing left that grows in my life but then i forget to water it and everything shrivels up and dies too, like my own chance at anything more.