i feel so empty sometimes like i never really told her how much i loved her, never reached out when she started changing, and now this guilt just hangs over me like, god, i hope her dealer gets what's coming to him but honestly i just wish she was here. it’s all so messed up.
was at work all day with a million deadlines and my mind just kept drifting to that weird dream i had about my old job, like why am i even thinking about it now? it was just this random conversation i had with my boss about staplers or something and its stuck in my head.
exhaled so hard today when the package i thought got lost showed up right on time, like i was bracing for a disaster and instead it was just this big sigh of relief. cannot believe my luck, almost makes me think all that worry was for nothing, which is wild because i was so sure things would go sideways.
watched a whole birthday party go down while i stood by the cake, smiling like a fool, and then realized i forgot to invite my own kid. spent the whole afternoon hoping no one would mention them as if somehow the empty space where they should've been wouldn't be too loud.
exhaled so hard today when the package i thought got lost showed up right on time, like i was bracing for a disaster and instead it was just this big sigh of relief. cannot believe my luck, almost makes me think all that worry was for nothing, which is wild because i was so sure things would go sideways.