General: got this diagnosis that feels like a really bad movie script and my first though…

i was literally scrolling through my contacts the other day and it hit me that there is no one to call, like not even a single person, and it brought back this weird memory of a friend i lost touch with after we both decided it was too risky to talk anymore, and now i just sit here feeling like a ghost in my own life, trying to remember the last time i actually felt connected to anyone.

so i walked into the coffee shop and literally forgot my wallet at home, which was already annoying but then the barista gave me the wrong drink and i took a sip and it was some weird flavor that just ruined my whole morning. it just felt like a sign of how today was gonna go.

just checked my account and wow, the rent is due but my balance is basically zero. thought about grabbing a quick snack but like, the snack costs more than my wallet can handle right now.