ever look at your friend group and wonder why you feel like the ghost at a party? i just found out they have a whole separate chat where they plan things without me, and honestly, part of me wants to be mad, but another part just wonders what wild things they think i would disapprove of... like do they really think i wouldn’t enjoy discussing the most ridiculous inside jokes about that one weird k...
i saw everyone celebrating tom banton's performance and felt this rush of envy. while my friends are closing deals and upgrading their lives, i’m just trying to figure out how to get through the week. like, i keep reminding myself that social media is a highlight reel, but it feels like everyone else is on the winning team except me. every success story i see just echoes the fact that i chose the ...
it's not that i'm not doing well; it's just that at family gatherings, when everyone brings up my cousin's success, i feel like a walking disaster. literally, it’s like they’re peeling back the layers of my life in real time, while i can barely keep it together on my couch. i mean, they have no idea that i'm up all night googling symptoms for anxiety and contemplating if living up to their expectations means changing my whole personality. honestly, my parents think my struggles are trivial. they don’t know the weight of feeling like i’m just a failed experiment in comparison to someone they adore. but hey, i discovered my cousin has had his share of failures, too. is it bad that i feel a little relieved? #
it's not that i'm not doing well; it's just that at family gatherings, when everyone brings up my cousin's success, i feel like a walking disaster. literally, it’s like they’re peeling back the layers of my life in real time, while i can barely keep it together on my couch. i mean, they have no idea that i'm up all night googling symptoms for anxiety and contemplating if living up to their expectations means changing my whole personality. honestly, my parents think my struggles are trivial. they don’t know the weight of feeling like i’m just a failed experiment in comparison to someone they adore. but hey, i discovered my cousin has had his share of failures, too. is it bad that i feel a little relieved? #
ok but do you ever feel like you’re literally one bad day away from diving into a dumpster and calling it home? like, people think I’m doing fine because I wear nice clothes and smile a lot, but honestly, I’m just really good at hiding the fact that I’ve got bills stacked higher than my actual paychecks. so here I am, nodding along at brunch while internally calculating how many more frozen dinner...