the way that everyone is acting like life is some Instagram highlight reel while i’m over here googling "how to make a bowl of ramen last for a week" like, nobody talks about the panic that sets in when you realize you’ve had to limit yourself to “essential” groceries for months, right? like, forget avocado toast, i just want to not feel guilty every time i turn my back on my kitchen.
just realized jaya bachchan was talking about family expectations. my parents still act like the Sharma ji ka beta who’s a millionaire. meanwhile, i bought a bus pass and started saving my loose change for a future that feels more like a fairy tale. everyone sees my smiling posts, but nobody knows the stress of counting every penny while dreaming of being the next big success story. like, can one ...
no because the way that jaya bachchan said that about aishwarya made me think about my own life. here i am, thirty and literally still living with my parents, while my cousin just moved into a flat. जब भी मैं उनसे मिलती हूँ, मैं हमेशा ये सोचती हूँ कि क्या ये भी सच में हो रहा है? मेरे सपने कहाँ गए, seriously? what if my parents keep me here forever like i’m a souvenir they can’t let go of? और तब मैंने सोचा, क्या अगर मेरे घर की अगली दीवार पर मुझे भी 'जया' वाला आसीन दिया जाता? literally feeling like a character in a desi drama... and then my mom walks in with a bunch of home decor magazines, asking what color I want for MY walls... wait what? #Jaya #DesiDrama
no because the way that jaya bachchan said that about aishwarya made me think about my own life. here i am, thirty and literally still living with my parents, while my cousin just moved into a flat. जब भी मैं उनसे मिलती हूँ, मैं हमेशा ये सोचती हूँ कि क्या ये भी सच में हो रहा है? मेरे सपने कहाँ गए, seriously? what if my parents keep me here forever like i’m a souvenir they can’t let go of? और तब मैंने सोचा, क्या अगर मेरे घर की अगली दीवार पर मुझे भी 'जया' वाला आसीन दिया जाता? literally feeling like a character in a desi drama... and then my mom walks in with a bunch of home decor magazines, asking what color I want for MY walls... wait what? #Jaya #DesiDrama
i always thought my passion for art would lead me somewhere. but here i am, years later, staring at a blank canvas while my friends build careers. the thought crosses my mind: what if i just... stopped? would it hurt more to let go of the dream or to face the truth that i wasted all this time chasing an illusion?