just watched my neighbor get his shiny new grill delivered while my oven's been broken for weeks and i am still eating takeout in my tiny apartment, like, when did life become a race to buy shiny stuff, also it has been so long since i even cooked a real meal that i forgot how to use a spatula, which is kinda embarrassing.
yaar, matlab samjho na, kya karoon, ghar wale understand nahi karte, akele hi phone scroll karte rehta hoon - kisse baat karun samjha nahi, koi yaad nahi aata, bas khud ko hi suna raha hoon
i really thought cleaning out my closet would feel like a fresh start but all it did was remind me of every dumb shirt i used to wear to parties and like why do i even own this stuff still it just feels heavy heavy in the back of my mind now. every time i pull a sweater out it just hits me like oh this one from that time when i thought i was cool, no one even cares about this but why can't i just get rid of it.
i really thought cleaning out my closet would feel like a fresh start but all it did was remind me of every dumb shirt i used to wear to parties and like why do i even own this stuff still it just feels heavy heavy in the back of my mind now. every time i pull a sweater out it just hits me like oh this one from that time when i thought i was cool, no one even cares about this but why can't i just get rid of it.
ran into my ex-coworker at the coffee shop today—she looked so put together in her nice suit and was chatting about her promotion while i sat there in my delivery uniform thinking about the 10-hour shifts for barely above minimum wage. like, can we talk about how my biggest win this week was getting my laundry done and i still forgot to pick up groceries.