बस यह सोच कर ही दिल बुरी तरह से टूट जाता है कि कोई भी मुझसे नहीं पूछता, कैसे हूँ। सब बस अपने बच्चों की उपलब्धियों की तुलना कर रहे होते हैं और मैं बस एक और अनुपस्थित इंसान की तरह वहाँ बैठा रहता हूँ। जबकि मेरे सिर में दुनिया के लिए नकारात्मकता है, परिवार में सबके लिए हमेशा शौक और गर्व है। यह हमेशा से ऐसा रहा है, और अब यह ज़िंदगी से ही थक चुका हूँ। एक वक्त पर खुद को साबित करने की चाहत थी, पर अब बस एक...
yaar, dekh raha hoon na, duniya kis tarah se badal rahi hai. jab main sochta hoon ki italy ke protests se kya matlab hai, ya kis tarah se sab kuch duniya ko affect karta hai, mujhe yeh ahsaas hota hai ki main akele hi nahi hoon. meri life mein to dosti thodi kamzor ho gayi hai, ab kisi se baat karne ko bhi dil nahi karta. jise main samjhta tha apna dost, ab woh sirf ek contact hai. kabhi kabhi soc...
ever find yourself accidentally liking an old photo of your ex, like some sort of time traveler? it’s a fun reminder that your love is now a museum piece. meanwhile, everyone else around you is pairing off, celebrating anniversaries, while you’re here contemplating how many versions of yourself you built around someone who forgot you even existed. sometimes it feels like you should just set a throne for your sadness. instead, here you are, in the middle of the crowd, raising a glass to all the goodbyes you never wanted to say.
ever find yourself accidentally liking an old photo of your ex, like some sort of time traveler? it’s a fun reminder that your love is now a museum piece. meanwhile, everyone else around you is pairing off, celebrating anniversaries, while you’re here contemplating how many versions of yourself you built around someone who forgot you even existed. sometimes it feels like you should just set a throne for your sadness. instead, here you are, in the middle of the crowd, raising a glass to all the goodbyes you never wanted to say.
literally, every time I hear those رمضانية أغاني, I feel this knot in my chest. wallah, nobody understands how much I long for that connection, the laughter around the table. I see my friends thriving, starting businesses, and here I am job hunting for months, with this مش طايق feeling creeping in. ya3ni, habibi, it’s lonely here. every time I send money back home, I tell everyone I’m fine. but re...