i just got my old bike back from the repair shop and it rides so smooth i literally cannot believe it after thinking it would be a total wreck forever and honestly, all the dread of it falling apart during my ride is just gone now.
checked my account just now and saw i only have thirty dollars left and rent is due in two weeks so how am i going to buy groceries because i just need to make it to next paycheck but now i regret ordering that takeout last week and they probably think i am such a loser for not having my finances together, like the electric bill is about to hit and i do not know what to do.
my neighbor asked if i was excited for the garden season and i just stared at her like how can you think about planting when my life is falling apart like that, it felt so fake to even have that conversation while inside my brain i am still reeling from everything that just happened.
my neighbor asked if i was excited for the garden season and i just stared at her like how can you think about planting when my life is falling apart like that, it felt so fake to even have that conversation while inside my brain i am still reeling from everything that just happened.
i found an old diary from when i was ten and there’s a part where i wrote that i wanted to disappear because i thought nobody would notice, it still makes my stomach drop thinking about how alone i felt and now its like i replay those words every time i mess up.