i literally rearranged my entire life to fit someone else’s vision of me. i took up painting and switched my diet just because they thought it would make me more interesting. fast forward to now, and i found out they have a crush on the luge olympics champion instead of me. can you believe that? just when i thought i had finally mastered this version of me, i find out she’s getting all the praise ...
last night, I sat through yet another family gathering, where everyone compared my life to my cousin's epic success like we were in some bizarre reality show. they all assumed my struggles with housing and debt were just me being "lazy" and completely ignored the mountain of anxiety that feels like a ten-ton elephant in the room. my parents still don't get that I don’t want to just check off boxes...
it's not that... it's just that every time I see the news about the Wexner scandal, I remember that time I accidentally used my ex's parents' credit card for a year while dating them, thinking it was a shared account. I still have the social media screenshots of me having existential crises about splurging on nail art while they had no idea—and honestly, that's probably less cringe than my panic when I realized I went full "count my spending" mode while their dad was tangled up with the Jeffrey Epstein thing. I could have warned them, but what do you say—“Hey, I used your dad’s money for gel nails and post-college self-doubt?” now that’s a fun family dinner, right? #LesWexner #whoops
it's not that... it's just that every time I see the news about the Wexner scandal, I remember that time I accidentally used my ex's parents' credit card for a year while dating them, thinking it was a shared account. I still have the social media screenshots of me having existential crises about splurging on nail art while they had no idea—and honestly, that's probably less cringe than my panic when I realized I went full "count my spending" mode while their dad was tangled up with the Jeffrey Epstein thing. I could have warned them, but what do you say—“Hey, I used your dad’s money for gel nails and post-college self-doubt?” now that’s a fun family dinner, right? #LesWexner #whoops
if you feel like you are lost in darkness right now, just remember that even the longest nights eventually give way to dawn. #SelfCare #HopeExists #StayStrong