i was in this group talk about energy healing and everyone was nodding like they knew what was going on but honestly all i could think about was that one time i forgot my lunch and now i just feel like a total phony.
literally can’t shake off the feeling that nobody wants to sit with me during breaks anymore, yaar, matlab samjho na, ये सब सिर्फ काम की बातों के लिए हैं, मैं यहाँ पर कुछ और हूँ। feeling like an outsider in my own space, कोई समझता नहीं।
yaar, matlab samjho na, mujhe apne monthly phone bill ka payment karne ka time nahi mila, ab account check kiya to pata chala sirf paanch so bache hain, ab soch rahi hoon ki ek aur month survive kaise karungi. bills itne zyada hain ki mujhe ghar wale batana bhi nahi chahte, samjhte nahi, maar daalenge mujhe.
yaar, matlab samjho na, mujhe apne monthly phone bill ka payment karne ka time nahi mila, ab account check kiya to pata chala sirf paanch so bache hain, ab soch rahi hoon ki ek aur month survive kaise karungi. bills itne zyada hain ki mujhe ghar wale batana bhi nahi chahte, samjhte nahi, maar daalenge mujhe.
i thought washing the dog would be the worst part of my day, but then he found a muddy puddle and came back looking like he joined a band called "grunge pup" while my neighbors watched like i was filming an indie horror flick and not just trying to avoid smelling like wet dog for a week.