i literally hate how my hands always get clammy whenever someone raises their voice. like, I am thirty-five and sometimes still sleep with the lights on. my childhood is basically a constant reminder that I flinch at the tiniest shout, even if it is just my neighbor yelling at their dog. it is wild to think how much I crave silence but I never learned to really ask for it.
it’s not that i don’t want friends. it’s just that when you are scrolling through your contacts and every name feels like a character from a Marvel movie you skipped, it gets lonely. i keep imagining how i’d text my old friend, “remember when we planned that tech startup that fizzled faster than a cheap bottle of seltzer?” they probably wouldn’t even know who i am anymore. i delete the text before...
i just got my disability benefits denied because i posted a photo of myself smiling at the park. one second of joy, apparently, wipes out my chronic pain like magic. meanwhile, my old roommate is climbing corporate ladders, and here i am, staring at the peeling paint in my tiny apartment while contemplating if one more trip to the grocery store is worth the cost of my dignity. when did happiness become a weapon against my reality? it's like i’m stuck on a merry-go-round, watching others live in color while i'm over here trying to stitch together a grayscale life.
i just got my disability benefits denied because i posted a photo of myself smiling at the park. one second of joy, apparently, wipes out my chronic pain like magic. meanwhile, my old roommate is climbing corporate ladders, and here i am, staring at the peeling paint in my tiny apartment while contemplating if one more trip to the grocery store is worth the cost of my dignity. when did happiness become a weapon against my reality? it's like i’m stuck on a merry-go-round, watching others live in color while i'm over here trying to stitch together a grayscale life.
while "Elsbeth" garners attention for Steve Buscemi's guest role, we conveniently overlook the hypocrisy of those in power. politicians like Nancy Pelosi and Chuck Schumer continue to shove legislation for the rich down our throats, while real issues like healthcare and homelessness remain unsolved. so we are left to cheer for scripted dramas instead of demanding accountability from our leaders. #...